| It's autumn in NY that brings the promise of new love. It's autumn in NY & it's good 2 live again... |
[Saturday
October 22nd, 2005
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haven't really ventured into the wonderful world of livejournal lately
it's finally fall, my favorite season, and i couldn't be happier
the weather is beautiful and the colors are vibrant and warm
the sun is bright and my soul feels more rested than it has in a while
the i've been busy with things like turning twenty and new love
i met the most beautiful, curly haired, hippie boy on my birthday
we've been inseparable since :D
i've been working lots and keeping warm sharing laughs and late nights with my favorites
living with ashli is great, as it's always been
i feel like i've met my other half, of both the male and female persuasion
it's a full feeling
i like it
we got a new kitten :) her name is lucy and she's great
so now we have GANJA & LUCY
(if you pick up on the subliminal reference you're probably cooler than i thought)
ALMOST HALLOWEEN!
so many good times lately
i hope you all are doing as well as i've been
i haven't forgotten about any of my lj friends
i send you all positive vibes
...more to come
October today and all of these changes brave as I may
Say that I am please say that I am the leaves and I fall again
The reason I called the reason I crawled to the place I am
From the place that I've been and all of your questions
I answer tonight
Yes I'm changing yes I'm breaking down and yes I need you around
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| summerland...it's just a name on a map, but it sounds like heaven to me |
[Saturday
August 6th, 2005
1:07pm] |
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let's just drive your car
we can drive all day
let's just get the hell away from here
for i am sick again
just plain sick to death
of the sound of my own voice
we can leave behind
another wasted year
let's get some cheap red wine
and just go flying
we can do the things
all the things you wanted to
no one cares about us anyway
i think i lost my smile
i think you lost yours too
we have lost the power
to make each other laugh
let's just leave this place
and go to summerland
it's just a name on the map
it sounds like heaven to me
we can find a town
be just how we want to be
no one here really cares about us anyway
we can find a place
make it what we want to be
no one really gives a fuck about us anyway
we can live
live just how we want to live
no one here really cares about us anyway
we can be
everything we want to be
we can get lost in the
fall, glimmer, sparkle, and fade
the sparkle and fade
fall, glimmer, sparkle and fade
fall, glimmer, sparkle and fade
forget about our jobs
at the record store
forget about all the
losers that we know
forget about all the
memories that keep you down
forget about them
we can lose them in the
sparkle and fade
fade...
the sparkle and fade
fall, glimmer, sparkle, and fade...
i absolutely love this song. art alexakis, you are my hero!
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[Tuesday
July 26th, 2005
10:38pm] |
my entries are going to be friends only from now on
it's a bit sad, yea...but this shit's going on lock down
so if you aren't already, and would like to be added so you can continue to read my incessant ramblings leave a comment and let me know this♥
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| i'm lovin life |
[Monday
July 25th, 2005
4:54pm] |
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there's no way i could map out what's been happening since my last post...there's just entirely too much. plus i really don't feel like trying to remember it all. or even sitting here in this humidity for more than 5 minutes. basically i've been living in bloomsburg for the past month or so. i'm never home anymore. and the past few days have probably been the best of my life. though now i'm stuck in a bit of a love triangle. or a love cube, if you will...considering there are 4 people involved, including myself. i almost have to laugh. you'd have to understand the 4 month dry spell i went through recently. now it's like everyone and their god damn brother wants to tax this. it really is comical. anyway today i started back to the 9-5 work grind. waking up at 6:45 this morning was unbearable, seeing that i've gone to bed around sunrise every night/day pretty much since summer began. also, i'm incredibly sick with the flu thanks to nik and it seems we've spread our little disease to all of the kids at 514. so as you can see, going to what some unknowingly refer to as "LBI" (liberty business information) or what i lovingly refer to it as "HELL" wasn't exactly my cup of tea this a.m. it was alright though, seeing my work people again was cool, and realizing that my first paycheck is going to be a fat one because i've got 2 paid holidays, 80 reg. hours (i get paid every 2 weeks) and i'm gonna try and squeeze in some overtime if i can. make money money. 2 weeks from now i shall splurge on myself and buy some shit i've been neglecting to, horray for that. i think i shall also throw a party that weekend, just because i can. i will also purchase at least an ounce of some dankity dank to schmoke with my buddies. :P everyone's been blazin me up for free lately and though i know they don't even think of it, or mind...i'd like to return the favor, regardless. also, work was chill because they haven't worked alot of the kinks of out the computer systems and now that we're back and using them, this problem has surfaced it's ugly little head but completely benefits me. basically the computers are fucked and i got paid for sitting on my ass, eating, playing silly games like hangman and hackey sack, chain smoking, and just walking around bullshitting with coworkers today. we even got sent home an hour early. i won't lie. i hope the matrix took over all of them and no one will ever be able to use a computer properly in that god forsaken place again. tomorrow should be fun. right now i'm trying to figure out how i can get to bloomburg tonight for the party ashli and sarah are throwing. jungle juice, hangin with my girls, and hours and hours of hot, kinky sex sounds delicious to me right now. which reminds me...i got two of the most bizzarre compliments this past week.
#1 ---> someone who shall remain nameless- "you have the most beautiful boobs i've ever seen. just look at them."
me- "haha thanks. i am looking at them."
him- "wow. you could seriously cut one in half, sell it, and make alot of money kel"
#2 ---> anonymous- "i'm having trouble breathing"
me- "heh...yea...it happens"
him- "that was amazing. was it that good for you?!"
me- "absolutely. yea, it was pretty good, wasn't it??"
him- "well, you have yourself to thank for that. anyone could be good with you"
so that made me feel like a million bucks. go inflated ego and big head. wooooo!
i'm sitting here eating raspberry sherbert, in my underwear, ganj is licking my toes, my girl's on the phone, and i'm about to pack a bowl...
also, i've come to the realization that it's silly to continue denying it to myself or anyone else for that matter so here it goes...i'm falling in love. and no matter where it takes me or where it leaves me, it's such an amazing feeling to be filled with. it's been so long that i had *almost forgotten what it felt like.
life is pretty schweet :)
please don't leave me summer, oh how i love you this year...
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[Friday
July 15th, 2005
1:04am] |
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i really hate sleeping alone. good thing this is the last night i'll have to :P goodnight lj world!
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[Thursday
July 14th, 2005
11:17pm] |
tonight i ♥
my weed
uncle ben's rice bowls
will & grace reruns
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| i wanna devise a virus to bring dire straights to your environment |
[Thursday
July 14th, 2005
7:10pm] |
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so i guess my sickness was only one of those 24 hour bugs. i'm better now. keeping food down and such. good stuff.
p.s. this song makes me think of ya/miss ya curt malkemes :)
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[Thursday
July 14th, 2005
1:59am] |
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| what the fuck is wrong with me?? |
[Thursday
July 14th, 2005
12:44am] |
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i'm dying :(
i've been shaking uncontrollably and vomiting about every 10 minutes or so since 6pm
one minute i'm freezing, the next i'm sweating
i'm terribly sick
if you know the number, call me and make me feel better
or at least send some positive energy my way...
and if i don't live to see tomorrow, i love you all
know this
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| CENTRALIA |
[Wednesday
July 13th, 2005
5:58pm] |
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this is basically mother nature's way of saying 'fuck you'
CENTRALIA, PA
turns out this place is only 20 minutes from bloom. i can't believe i've never been there, let alone only heard about it recently. i'm intrigued. cj and i have decided that our weekend plans are as follows: burn ride to centralia. scope out the place, go exploring until we can no longer stand the heat, jump off the bridge/swimming, then later drunken camping in the woods at jack rock's. and i'm sure michelle and ashli are down. colin too. i can't wait.
(note to self: develop old film, get new.)
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| what'd you do this weekend kel? oh you know, i beat up a dude... |
[Wednesday
July 13th, 2005
4:57pm] |
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what a crazy last couple of days it's been...let me try and play catch up:
FRIDAY- arrived in bloom. was greeted by a small entourage of my buddies at 514 where a small party was going on. lots of good music, good buds, and good friends. ( Read more... )
SATURDAY- woke up, smoked a bunch of bowls with ash in bed. went to riz's where i was greeted with a blunt. smoked some bongs. i'm high as fuck when all of a sudden lane calls to say he's a half an hour away. ahhhhh! ( Read more... )
SUNDAY- damn. sunday is a complete blur to me, leading me to think i mostly smoked a bunch of pot. hung out with michelle, ash, and kmac at her place. wow, i really can't remember shit. i know we went on a huge burn ride and smoked like 6 bowls or something. but i don't know for sure if that was sunday or monday. i'm cool. i do know i ended up spending the night with george again.
MONDAY- i think monday was when riz and i went over tom's to hang out for a little while, i could be wrong. i really suck at trying to remember things that happened days ago, especially when i was high then and i'm high now. later that night there was a poker party at jenn and jay's. riz, brandon, his girlfriend michelle, MY girlfriend michelle, kmac, samuri, george, jess, ashli, robin and cflak were there. sarah showed up for a few minutes. drank some wine with my girls, fun times. colin and i rocked out in the livingroom. him on guitar, me on vocals. i miss that so much. that used to be our everyday at old skool house last summer. annnnnnnyway riz, both flak boys, ash, george, and myself head back to riz's to smoke a couple bowls and hang out. did a couple 'bird calls' hahahah. riz and colin wrestled. i ended up throwing a ball at colin's face, missing, and breaking this huge mirror. oops. he started it :P everyone left/was starting to pass out so i followed george upstairs for some fun. and the details will be left secret.
TUESDAY- woke up, ash and i went back to her place so she could get ready for work. i mostly caught up on some sleep. she came home for her break and we smoked. turns out she didn't have to go back in so she came home and we napped more. then my dad came and i went home.
so basically i had a great weekend and then some. people asked me what i did last weekend and i think this pretty much sums it up: "i beat up a dude, fed some kids acid, and had my first orgasm in 4 months that wasn't self induced" :P
it's nice to be back in my own bed, but i realized i really do suck at sleeping alone :/
and i'm having 'friend withdrawals' already so instead of waiting for next weekend, i think i'll just go back friday...
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[Friday
July 8th, 2005
5:33pm] |
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it's full of butterflies and they're going into combat with each other :)
in a little over 24 hours lane will be here.
this kid is driving all the way to PA just meet me.
and being all nervous/excited about that is taking my mind off of other stupid bullshit i shouldn't have to think about, so...horray!
i just wish he was coming tonight because:
a: i look freakin hot today for some reason
b: ashli is off from work all day/night
c: big party goin down at 514 tonight
d: all this waiting is killlllllllllling me
i'm like shaking...i don't know if it's from the nervousness or all the chainsmoking i've been doing due to the nervousness. wait, it's all contributed to the nervousness. i'm so smart :P
it's all gravy. in an hour or so i'll be in bloomburg with all my friends and their moral support.
i'm off to smoke at least 2 bowls to my face in hopes of settling down a bit...
my next entry should be an interesting one, so stay tuned!
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| hello, i'm the dumbest girl you'll ever meet |
[Thursday
July 7th, 2005
11:54pm] |
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oh.my.god.
i must be the stupidest person alive...
i feel like an idiot. a complete fucking idiot.
i honestly have no words.
i'm fucking speechless :(
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| gwen stefani would you peepee on me cause i ain't never see an ass like that |
[Thursday
July 7th, 2005
9:06pm] |
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so i guess i'm goin back to bloom tomorrow night seeing that it's the only time i can get a ride there. wow, i guess i really am never home :P
i have butterflies in my stomach
i think someone got shot in south williamsport today. i was sitting outside smoking a bowl on my back porch chatting with ashli when all of a sudden i hear what sounded like gun shots. at first i passed it off as fireworks because there were some kids setting them off last night in my neighborhood. though it was like 2 pm, i really didn't think much of it. not until i heard all the sirens. for 25 minutes straight cops came flying from every direction. and ambulances. alot of them. i mean not like 1 or 2, not even 5 or 6...i stopped counting at 10 police cars and 4 ambulances. i didn't want any trouble so i took my weed inside and proceeded to get fucked up. i hope no one's dead. i didn't think williamsport was so bad. i mean people call it 'little philly' because all the outed gang members and people who are running from the police in philadelphia come here. i remember when i first moved here and i went to the doctor to get my back x-rayed and sitting in the waitingroom with me were 3 different guys, all black, and all of them had been shot earlier that day. craziness...i also hope it's not someone i know. i wouldn't put it past brandon and those guys to get all fucked up and think it's a good idea to start playing with guns. ah, who knows? maybe i'll find out on the news later...
p.s. being home alone for a few days is great. i haven't worn any clothes since tuesday night when jess and john dropped me off. it's just too damn hot. i've been cooking, cleaning, sleeping, doing whatever...all naked. and i bet that makes you hot!
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| LANE'S COMING! LANE'S COMING! WOOOOOOHOOOOO! LANE'S COMING! |
[Thursday
July 7th, 2005
7:48pm] |
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THIS ENTIRE ENTRY SHALL BE MADE IN CAPS LOCK BECAUSE I CAN...
LANE
AKA MY NEW BEST FRIEND/INTERNET CRUSH IS COMING TO SEE ME THIS WEEKEND!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I'M SO FREAKIN EXCITED!!!
HE'S DRIVING 3 HOURS JUST TO MEET ME, LITTLE OLD ME...
I'M SCARED...OF WHAT? I DON'T KNOW REALLY
I GUESS THE FACT THAT HE COULD MEET ME AND NOT LIKE ME
I DON'T SEE THAT HAPPENING THOUGH
I GUESS IT'S JUST MORE OF A NERVOUS THING
BUT I DON'T LIKE IT, EITHER WAY
I JUST HOPE I DON'T DISAPPOINT HIM
AND HE'S LIKE "AWW SHIT WHAT A WASTE OF TIME/MONEY/GAS!"
AND EVEN IF I SUCK, HE'LL HAVE MY FRIENDS TO CHILL WITH
AND I KNOW THEY DON'T SUCK
SO I'M IN THE MIDST OF PLANNING SOME FUN FOR US
LANE & MACK IF YOU GUYS ARE READING THIS I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET YOU!!!
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[Thursday
July 7th, 2005
4:05pm] |
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so i've got a bit of catching up to do...
( CAUTION:SUPER HUGE WEEKEND UPDATE )
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| guess who's back,back again,kelly's back,to fuck your friends... |
[Tuesday
July 5th, 2005
8:08pm] |
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yea so i'm finally home
what a crazy past few days it's been
definitely a weekend to remember
and then some...
more on that later, i'm simply just too tired
i'm off to smoke some herb and basically RELAX
i always come back from bloom with my head spinning :P
p.s. i love me a girl named michelle
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